Wednesday, September 1, 2010
I had a truly dreadful week of painting and scraping and wiping due to
doubting how I see my own work. Not being able to assess what you're
seeing could really drive a person crazy. Jean Townsend assured me it
happens and gave some practical advice: work in a series, keep them,
however bad you think they are, then compare to see which you prefer.
The next step, I guess, would be to figure out what it is you like about
the one you prefer and trust that as you go forward.
I'm periodically aware that I often work with a conflicted mind: still have
visions of painting like my heroes (the San Francisco Bay Area painters)
and forget that I am not them. The goal, of course, is to find a way to
paint that is intrinsic to me. It sounds so simple, but after years of looking
at art, years of working in different ways and in different creative fields,
I've got a lot of clutter in here.